Acceptance

So now that I have had a chance to process I am trying to see the positive of Nyla coming this week.

1- It is the best thing to do for both of us healthwise

2- Chinese New Year starts at the end of January leaves me a whole month that China will not be emailing me and so I can focus on adjusting to being a mom.

3- The pro-bowl is this weekend, who cares about the pro bowl anyways!?!?!

4- I will finally get to hold her.

5- I will be able to see my toes again.

6- I am able to take awesome BP meds as of this afternoon because they are no longer concerned about them masking Pre-E, so I am going to start to physically feel a little better.

7- I can have some say/control in the situation, and anyone who knows me knows i love to plan EVERYTHING.

8- They initially told me I would be lucky to make it to 32 weeks, I made it to 36, take that doctors!!!!

9- No matter what happens I have an amazing support system of family and friends who will be there for me to help me through whatever the future holds.

I think I am ok with this.